October 06, 2005
Fake It.. can't be true somehow.
I stil cannot let go of this feeling. Ther's one gal called me last nite. We used to be very close fren since I was 15/16 yrs old. But things & feeling had changed dramatically since last yr when she came back from overseas. Sad to say tat, but I finally managed to see thru some of her "true" characters, which I never noticed b4. She's always wanted the other person to do watever she wanted. For example, I aint like singing ktv every single time. but she insists me to go sing wif her everytime when she ask me out. which makes me so irritating. yet he dare to ask me to go sing ktv on this sat juz for her leisure. wtf? arent she knows its my BIRTHDAY?? while i test her, exactly, she juz forgot this sat is my bday. yet she dare to suggest somethin like clubbing on fri/sat nite to celebrate. hey come on, i stil remember last yr she 'put me on airplane' caused 3 of us waiting outside dance club. she was the one suggested to go, yet the one didnt turn out. wtf? rite? u mite hav the same feeling wif me tho. now i finally realised watever she does / suggest is juz bcos she feels like to hav fun on it, not bcos the rest of us want to. cuz she never cared abt others feeling. she juz insists to hav her own fun. i already had these kind of 'airplane' enough. last mth while we went out for clubing after she begged me for so long, she was the one promised to fetch me home, u bet, she didnt do wat she promised. since then, i really feel disappointed of her. i juz wan to put her out of my mind, out of my sight.some ppl r juz remain childish like a teenager. well, tats explained y we cant be close fren anymore.
here's some pic of the talk show last nite. which i mentioned the telecast time to her so many times yet she never seen a single episode. this is the no.9 episode baby. dun tell me u forgot every single 9 times. forget it. i need to forget everything too. oh my oh my frenship. all wasted.
