September 28, 2005
once upon a time
he used to be the luv of my life. u know i always cant hide my feelings to him. therefore i remained single for a few yr to heal my wound. i gave him all my heart, my soul. i tot this would be the best way to make himself trust me more. but i failed. we ended up in silent. i stil rmber he was the one who told me his luvs aint charity. therefore i put all my trust on him. cuz i belief he luvs me. i stil dunno y we would end up in separate way. it was the darkest period i had. i tried so damn hard to walk thru his shadow. i wonder does he knows tat? i could wake up by my tears in the middle of the nite. i cried & cried & cried. then i only realised, he would never come back. never. my heart never feel tat pain. i drop out from college. cuz i cant focus on anything in life. my heart, my mind, my soul is all empty. working does make me feel better. cuz i cant think of anything else except him. juz when i tot i could be heart free, i met him in an unexpected place. he seems afraid too. tat day on the way i drove home, i was all crying.today, i finally met up wif him. after we broke off for nearly 3 yrs. thank god the only tiny feeling was gone.
