November 27, 2004
hang over fri nite
went to ny club wif pat last nite. not so fun, cuz the place was not peak as b4. juz took some beer+ vodka lime. damn it bored. saw my fling chianming was there wif his bunch of frens.
i didnt say hi to him, haha, as i dun wish to say hito his frens. funny? i juz sense tat he could do better, not like in this way. eventot i know he's driving a bmw now, but i'm tat kind of gal will look further into his personality n standard of living. i am crucial. rem wat he told me when we used to hang out few yrs ago, "we're from different world."
this is the fact. we're different. he hates my eng-educated frens. it made he lost his self-esteem. well, i can't change a guy's mind if he would think in tat way. right? i have my own life to go.
y should i stay for a guy? if i could undetstand this in the past, i wouldnt ruin my future juz for the kev pang. i shouldn't stay here for my college studies. really.
ends up i choosed a bad college, i pick the wrong guy. he wasn't the one for me. altot the ferrari seems a perfect match to me. but hey, he wasn'e the one for me.
he was too selfish, erogant,self-ego. and he's always jealous for my guy frens.
*sigh* i shouldn't tell him so much about my romances n histories.
this is the one thing i regret for. till now. i gave in too much for him, far than i imagine.
pls dun try to figure out how much i love to that person. i always gave in so much n anymore.
i guess this is my weakeness.
