October 20, 2004
angel?
im not an angel. n i dunno y those fella keep telling me 'hey gal,yes u r'. who the hell do u think u are? am i suppose to listen to u n hear wat the shit u said? i think my mind is getting complicated again. hmm..time flies.. i still remember tat time when i was down, darren was the silly one sacrificed himself on my mind changing motivator.i started to loosing myself when i failed in my relationship wif kev p..
those wild days..hey bel, u stil remember? u guys were quarrelled outside the club, in the cafe, on the roadside, inside the car, n on the phone at several nites.
i dunno y.
i felt everythings were out of my control. it juz happened. it juz beyond my imagination.
i never tot tat he would step out of my life. never.
but things happened. bel, things happened. he left. he was left. without words. without a good-bye. without a good-bye kiss. without a hug he used to give. without a heart he used to be.
goddamnit.
am i suppose to be here n keep talking abt him?
oh, maybe its becos i juz saw kerry n shaun profiles on ronald's friendster.
n it reminds me of tat fella. it muz be.
im tired. tired of being lies. tired of being unfaithful.
kick ur ass kev p.
ah, my all tears n pains u gave me.
